I am about halfway done with my terminal degree program. It has been difficult being the best mom, wife, faculty, and student but thanks to lots of support and understanding from my amazing husband and family, the light is at the end of the tunnel.
Mental health issues continue to batter our family, but with less intensity and frequency overall. D went on a LONG stretch of relatively stable behaviors, but the disease is always under the surface ready to rear its' ugly head. As he gets older, bigger, and stronger the episodes are different. The Jekyll and Hyde of these situations is startling. It's like he's not present in the midst of our most challenging times. The same little boy who is in attack mode, is the same little boy who gives away his toys to other children, does his brother's chores for him, and is the first to give me a spontaneous kiss and tell me he loves me.
I still don't know why God has given D and our family these challenges. Yes, I can say I am a much stronger woman than I thought I was. I am more patient than I thought possible (on most days). However, I think part of it is the learning what it truly means to love unconditionally and follow God's lead. This isn't a path Matt and I would have self-selected, but our family is our family in all its highs and lows.
God is asking us to follow His lead on some upcoming things that are scary/exciting/nerve wracking. I try desperately to hear His voice in the process. He has given Matt and I a unique set of parenting and life skills that not many have.
The path with D has been scary/exciting/nerve wracking but I wouldn't change it for a second. So, I will follow along where God leads and trust that He will give me (and Matt) the help and guidance we need along the way.
A couple of updated photos of the boys. I can't believe how fast they are growing.
Kings Island opened again on D's birthday...we are thrilled to have our favorite place to visit open once again
This guy won the Pinewood Derby again...so proud!
I will try and be better about keeping the blog updated, and our special family adventures! Remember, mental health disease is something that SHOULD be discussed, and is a disease, a medical condition. If you or someone you love is suffering, please reach out for help! You aren't alone.
Happy Saturday, René